Our trip to my in-laws on Sunday went wonderfully. We all enjoyed it and I was truly in a good mood and had fun. The spanking prior to going really put me in a good place emotionally.
But today, I was kind-of snotty on the way home from work today and I really disappointed my husband. I think he is getting ready to punish me. I was in a bad mood when I got in the car because I had a tough day, and I was short and sarcastic in our conversation. I also was starving which always put me in a terrible mood.
He said, with a completely straight face and stern demeanor, "You know I am going to punish you for this behavior right?" I kind of laughed, which is more of how our old dynamic was. He didn't even crack a smile, which gave me butterflies. In my head, I was wondering, is he really mad? Is he really going to punish me? I also got a bit nervous, and could feel the adrenaline surge. I apologized and then said, "So you aren't going to punish me right?" and he said (still straight faced), "No, I am."
This is a completely different dynamic. I am excited that he is taking it seriously (clearly more seriously than I am because I sort-of scoffed about him actually really punishing me). I am also a little scared. And a little hesitant.
I trust him though. I know he is reading and learning about this and I want to please him.
I hope he follows through I know its hard for me when Tyler isn't consistent...
ReplyDeleteWe've been at this for over 3 years and I still wonder if JJ is serious at times, lol. It's important to communicate in the beginning. I would let him know it means a lot to be consistent
ReplyDeleteHope you got the spanking you deserved ;)
Kady