Deep breath...here I go

This blog is an attempt to understand, process, and record the changes my husband and I are going through as I head into my 4th decade of life.

I am a strong, controlling, fun woman who is married to a laid back, chill kind of guy.  We have been married for 16 years.  We have always had what I have considered a pretty strong marriage and commitment.  We never considered that love was going to allow us to live a life floating around on a cloud of happiness - we always understood that love and marriage is a choice, and that we would have to work together to keep our union strong.

And, I think we have done a pretty good job of that.  We have two incredible kids, a great house, two careers that we excel at, and a host of great friends.  We are lucky.  Our sex life has always been above average, if a little too infrequent for my husband at times. We have always experimented with porn, toys, fantasies, etc.  From conversations with our friends, it seems we are the kinky ones, even though I know we are far from that (at least so far).

So, why am I here?  We have recently begun to experiment a little more with spanking, D/s, and even  have discussed making our relationship more "Taken in Hand" like. Anyone who knows me would laugh their ass off at the thought of this, as I am seriously a strong, alpha female.  It is completely against everything I have ever believed, and the antithesis of what I learned growing up, at college, at work - everywhere.

I just can't deny that there is something completely sexy about being taken, about being controlled, and about being dominated.  Most of this boils down to sex I think, at least for us, and that seems to be the opposite of what I have read in Taken in Hand blogs (It seems that sex is a part of it, but the whole domestic discipline thing is supposed to be far from sexy - at least I think).

In any case, I wanted to start blogging about our experience and use this space as a place to process what is happening.  I look forward to sharing it with you!